Sunny Daze

 

All these happy pills I take make me feel 'sunny' and 'dazed'...they also take the edge off my monster's grip (and griping) on me.  I needed a couple extras today but by Friday I'll be feeling much better.  Turns out the blood results uncovered the need for more transfusions.  Apparently will be getting at least 2 more units and platelets, too.  Friday is when those goodies should kick in and once again I be feeling a bit more perky, the pain will ease up and the weekend will be more enjoyable.  It's awesome how God created our bodies with such precision.  I now know that my body doesn't function well when my red blood cell count dips below 32 and at 30 I begin to ache, by 27 or lower I am barely able to stay awake, my bones are screaming and walking across the room is like climbing Kilimanjaro!  My count today is 26, so that tells you what's up in my world, eh?

Tomorrow is doctor day.  Dr. B and I need to discuss the upcoming MRI (next week) and the internal radiation  plans.  I know the monster is shrinking with each treatment.  The burns are no fun however I've found that well placed Solarcaine (w/aloe vera & lidocaine) provides some relief.  Each day, each hour I'm awake, I thank God for walking with me each step of this vicious journey and making it bearable.  I know so many others who He also walks with and they suffer much more than I.  I pray they, like me, will be shouting "Victory, Victory!"

Very tired so I'll close with this from Through The Looking Glass Chapter 5:
Alice laughed. "There's no use trying," she said: "one can't believe impossible things."
"I daresay you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half-an-hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."