Darkness Before Dawn?

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     My sweet life is usually filled with one balancing act after another; most days it's getting to and from medical appointments;  the other days it's trying to get appointments or recuperating from what happened at them. Having a monster to cope with brings challenges which I choose to keep sweet, not bitter; some days I confess it's a bit more difficult to avoid sourness.     Truth be told, recent times have been a struggle. perhaps this is the darkness before the dawn as relates to my health.  How I long for the time when being sick is rarity as opposed to the normal.

Times have been tough for me of late; I've got bi-lateral lymph-edema in my legs which has now spread to my torso and I'm so filled with lymph fluid my weight has shot up 79 lbs in less than 26 days.  I ended up with infection to both legs which resulted in a 4 day hospital stay, specialized medications and therapeutic  wraps from toes to thighs.  The wraps are done in a precise way designed to help push the lymph fluid excesses out of my body.  This type of edema cannot be treated with Lasix. I'm being told this condition will be a life-long issue; all I know is this is painful and with feet and legs nearly the size of my thighs wearing shoes is impossible.

Dr. L has suspended my chemo because my body is just too beat up to withstand it right now.  I've required another 4 units of blood and 6 units of platelets.  She's had me stop the proctitis treatments which is ok because that bleeding has nearly stopped (yay).  So for now treatment and monster status are in limbo. Maybe dawn is near?

  Never knock on Death's door: ring the doorbell and run (he hates that).