Moving Forward

Today is a week since last chemo treatment stuff and I couldn't have my treatment this time because my white cells are waaaaaaaaayyyyy too low.  I've got some kind of pre-infection going on so it's beck to the anti-biotic drawing board.  On the plus side my hemoglobin and red cell counts are in the double digits, a bit low but now by much..go me!  Also I explained that the while cell shots, Neuprogen, they give me depress my respiratory system to the point it feels like I've got an elephant sitting on my chest and can barely catch my breath.  Feeling like I am sucking for air constantly is not a good feeling nor is it good for my body whatsoever!  They said never had a patient given them a description such as mine (again, go me for being a first) I took one shot of this stuff today and by the time I got back home an hour later the same reaction was taking place.  I've called them back to report this and before the work day is over they'll let me know what to do about the other 2 shots I'm to get Thurs and Fri.

This whole experience with chem is so very different that what I went through in 2009 with the minimal chemo and mega radiation.  Except for the internal radiation treatments this time has been by far much more challenging to deal with.  I barely recognize myself this time, I'll need major dental work, serious skin care, virtually no lifting/pushing/pulling, I' m still unable to rejoin a fitness center due to those things plus I am still bleeding so using aquatics is out of question still.  Generally I just feel yucky most days and yet I have so much to be grateful for: although i get seriously nauseated I have not vomited and for now the loose stools have stopped so I can eat real foods again.  All in all I could be much worse and I am so blessed not to be!

Well foks I'll keep you apprised but for now I plan to take a nap and when I wake up my mom should be here for a visit!