Day After The Day Before

So it's a new day and I'm pleased that so far I'm still feeling ok for the most part.  The chemo got chopped into one third dosages for this week and the next two instead of having the whole amount in one shot.  Hopefully my system won't go into a tailspin as this Saturday approaches.  I had another neuprogen shot today to send my cell production into maximum overload (one more on Friday) that dose was also cut from 450 mg to 300 mg and while I faintly feel like that sea to shore sensation it's not as furious as before, hopefully the shot tomorrow won't send that smack up in my system.  And yes, I am praying I can stay away from the 'porcelain throne'/shower...if that starts up again I'll be back in the hospital.  A new twist has come up this treatment: the steroids I'm on have gotten me swelled up to where I am looking preggers ( and uncomfortable)  That darn lymphedema just won't go away either, I rather miss seeing my size 8 feet and slim legs.  To sum it up at this precise moment I sort of look like the Mitchelan Man, except the steroids also make me look like I've been out in the sun too long and I pretty much feel like a huge rolly polly toy...go me!

On the plus side, after getting shot up my next stop was one floor down to cancer navigator from the American Cancer Society, like the one I had while being treated in Denver; and I was blessed with two brand new wigs!  Free and exactly my hair color!  One is slightly longer than shoulder length, just like my hair was a week ago and the other is collar bone length, this shorter one is  slightly curled, my kiddo said "This one makes you look like you have the First Lady's hair do"  How could that be, for obvious ethnic reasons for starters and me being blue-eyed and blonde I'm hard put to see that connection...I'm thinking maybe it makes me look more like Martha Stewart.  Either way it was such a gift to know that when I go out in public now I can look like just a person instead of a monster victim; cuz' I don't remotely think of myself as a victim of anything, especially of my monster!  So anyway this part of my day was wonderful, now I just have to get used to wearing them but I will because it's gonna be a long time before I have my own hair again.

This journey consistently amazes me; I keep meeting/being met by some of the sweetest folks; God-loving folks and I find it encouraging to fellowship with them as our paths cross; they, too, appear to be encouraged by me as well....all part of God's perfect plan for our lives.  I just wish His vehicle for us intersecting wasn't the monsters we are battling in our bodies.  Don't you think it's amazing how God utilizes the negatives in this life for His ultimate glory!!

I'm tired so will close this for the night...love and peace through Him for you from Him!

Beginning today, treat everyone you meet as if they were going to be dead by midnight. Extend to them all the care, kindness and understanding you can muster, and do it with no thought of any reward. Your life will never be the same again. (Og Mandino)