Tuesday Thoughts

Let's get caught up shall we?  Monday was a napping and early to bed type of day.  Some days in this journey are like that; zilch, zip, zero energy (sometimes I double check to see if I'm spouting a tail and furry paws cuz lately I often sleep like a lazy cat.....purrrrrrrrr)  There's something weird going on with my ankles and feet, or perhaps I should say those limbs which now look like oak tree trunks.....it may be a reaction to the potassium prescription Dr. B put me on a few days ago...not to worry, God knows what it is and He will reveal it to my doctor when I go in for tests Wednesday morning.  Each evening I've also been getting fevers up to 102 which last about 2 hours then disappear.

Today I had a burst of energy; cleaned the laundry room, helped take care of a water leak in the building, set up painting and cleaning of a vacant apt, plus got rid of the household items the former tenant left behind; then took care of some cleaning in my own apt.  It felt great to do more than I've been able to do since before this journey began but I also realize my physical strength is quite low.  This actually surprises me, as I honestly thought by now I'd be feeling a lot more peppy.  Lord knows I'm grateful for whatever abilities He blesses me with!  I'm so humbled just to know His love for me includes allowing me the privilege of being able to wash my dishes, scrub bathroom fixtures and vacuum the carpeting; mundane things which having the strength to do them brings joy to my spirit.  Yes, joy.....joy that underneath this physical oppression there is a healthy me winning this war. 

Dr. B called late this afternoon and in addition to the tests he wants to give me tomorrow he let me know I will be doing a FIRST.  On Thursday I will be the very first person to have the brand new outpatient Ovoid Implant procedure done at this medical facility.  Essentially it's the same one I did for 16 hours as an inpatient, except it's 1 tube, no rubber panties, no dilaudid meds, only a few hours of implantation.  The surgery is scheduled for 1 PM and Dr. B says I'll be ready to leave for home by 6 PM.  The radiation process itself is what is speeded up.  Hopefully there will be no glitches.  I will be pretty doped up Thursday evening so please know I most likely won't be posting here until sometime on Friday.

Once again, please know how precious each of you are to me because it is through you God speaks to me; sometimes He is loud; often He simply has you write something which is barely over a whisper; but that whisper makes me lean closer to hear Him better.  Through your uplifting quotes, scripture references and kind comments I find powerful tools to help keep me centered on this journey.  Thank you for wrapping me with genuine love.

You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.
-- Kahlil Gibran