Two consecutive days of basic simple. Sleeping , small walks, staying warm. doing dishes, collecting household trash....talking with 'my' Saint Bernard across the street, watching the crisp leaves float through the air and sitting outdoors in the late afternoon sunshine; simple stuff, like a normal person does or enjoys. Except for the cancer treatment side effects I spent yesterday and today able to feel like just a regular person. I'll be very grateful when this 'normal' I now have is replaced with the old regular normal I used to have; and I promise to never take that normal for granted again.
Dr. B isn't quite certain I have lymphedema, he says it doesn't usually occur this soon. He says we'll keep a close watch on it. I, on the other hand am very certain this is lymphedema; my monster grew so fast and furiously and now is also being killed the same way so whether this radiation side effect is on schedule or not according to medical manuals is meaningless to me. Right now I can handle the pain associated with this and there are no blood clots so I will do a bit more waiting with Dr. B.
My next internal Zapping takes place Friday. Surgery begins at 8:30 AM and should take less time this week since this is no longer a new procedure..(I'd still like to know where my ribbon is). Beginning tomorrow I'm going to begin the pre-op preps it's easier if I sort of slide into it rather than do it hard and heavy for 1 day.
All my days are simple in one respect: I never need wonder if God is with me, loves me, strengthens me. I love the simple life!
2Serve the LORD with gladness: come before his presence with singing.
3Know ye that the LORD he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.
4Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name.
5For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.~~Psalm 100
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