Got Moisture?

My health goal is to feel and look as drenched in dew as this flower.  Right now I'm in very parched condition, physically; so it's good, spiritually, that my soul is always quenched.  Recently my sister made and sent me a beautiful mini-book filled with scripture and uplifting quotes/sayings/poems which is placed next to my Bible and other uplifting books (also, mostly given to me by my sister).  The books and prayers, as does my nearly daily phone calls with my mom; help me go forward when I simply feel completely wilted.

Since I last posted I had to go back for more transfusions and would like to report they helped me feel better; but I can't because they didn't.  At this point it just seems like I'm barely maintaining status-quo in the blood dept.  There has to be a solution to this blood loss/transfusion merry-go-round.  On Monday, August 9th, I'll be going to see the GI doc for either the final time or for him to get a health plan together for me, cause the one he told me to use (go home and learn to live with it) is unacceptable to me.

If there is so much radiation damage that to do laser or other kinds of surgery would mean me bleeding to death during an operation then fine, but then there has to a way for me to get some strength back in conjunction with the constant blood loss.  Perhaps mega vitamin therapy/shots is in order.  All I know is I am unable to babysit my grand-daughter because I am too weak to pick her up or to keep up with her as she plays; I can barely stay awake these days.  It's as if I'm just slowly slipping away over this condition and yet in other major areas of physical health like heart, lungs, etc everything is great.

Monday is also going to be a day for me to confront...yes, I said, confront, the pharmacy specialist in the medical program I am in.  That office is located just before the GI doc's bldg and I'm going to stop in to ask why she has not placed the cost over-ride on the prescriptions my primary care doc wrote for me 3 weeks ago as of yesterday.  My program card says my co-pay is $7.50 or a max of $12.50 and the pharmacy wants to charge me nearly $300 between the 2 scripts.  The pharmacy has repeatedly left messages for this gal, I've not been able to reach her via phone and neither has my PC doc.  It would be very helpful to have these prescriptions one is for severe nausea the other an internal foam medication for colon pain. (loss of blood, nausea and chronic pain are not helping my goal to have a healthy life)  If this gal is not in or won't see me then there will be someone else there who will because I am not leaving without being helped regarding this problem.  And for pete sake, I am only allowed 3 prescriptions per month in this program as it is!  Of course I can have all I can pay for at regular prices but we know I do not have the means right now to do so.

Is your head spinning from all this yet?????????  And so it's back to something uplifting until we meet again, dear ones.

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.~~Psalm 19:14