Wowzerzzzzz! Just since Saturday morning my pain has disappeared AND I'm NO longer depressed, either!! Ummmm, except the reason for these miraculous healings is because 95% of the time I am practically in a comatose state; hard to feel physical or emotional pain when I'm sound asleep most of the 24 hour days. The remaining 5%, like now, is spent trying to accomplish a few things; if only I could remember what they are! ..I mean, come on folks, I feel like I need a tether rope to keep me from floating off into space. I've started making sticky notes in neon colors, strategically placed during my 'lucid' moments so I have some kind of record of my life right now....sigh, methinks a serious medication adjustment is forthcoming because next week I'm supposed to double the dosage. Somehow I don't think that is gonna happen.
And the real kicker is: I can't even tell if I'm well rested because I am so zonked out! People who find some kind of pleasure being 'high/spaced out' have got me stumped, I detest feeling like this; my every waking moment is spent forcing myself to come up out of the 'fog' , to stay awake (alert isn't even optional right now) and not leave the stove on or water running and driving???????? You've got to be kidding; I can barely find the front door much less drive....besides, driving would seriously cut into my sleeping time, right?
Okay enough, I am struggling to get this posting done (I think it's taken me nearly an hour now) Prayers and hugs from me to you....please do the same for me.
Ginger, has anyone suggested B complex vitamins to you? They may help with depression. Your brain may be fried, you may sleep more than a cat, but you're in remission, your bone marrow is intact and you're winning!
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